life.

Oh my life has been a ball of busy, busy, busy. There hasn't been much sleep or rest but now that blue spheres is finished I feel a huge weight off of my shoulders. This morning I slept until 9 and kept my phone off for a few extra hours so I could spend time with my puppy and listen to beethoven. Everything feels good. Roger and I talked. He promised he'll try to treat me better. This always happens, and it always only lasts for a short amount of time. I let it happen. I honestly don't think I deserve better. I haven't been cared about by another male the way he claims to care about me in nearly two years. I can't help but wanting that feeling and the fact that i'm willing to be treated the way I let him treat me just for the little affection that comes in return.

It's all okay, I'm not sad.
I bought a beautiful lamp yesterday and I can't tell you how much I like it.
Life's calming down. I love the end of the session. :)
I just need to stay motivated.