Tuesday, September 22, 2009


There's nothing more that I hate then myself. I am entirely neurotic and when it comes to caring about people, i am getting too weary. I give all i can to whoever will let me & then they let me down by being selfish. I can only give so much. I just needed a goodnight call or something. I don't know why it matters. I'm needy and that's the problem. I need to feel you when you're not around.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009


i work really well under pressure. although i'm in a daze, life is okay. i think.
I'm obsessed with the show weeds. SO good.

Friday, May 29, 2009


no matter where you go, life is always going to be the same. I feel like giving up.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009


all I can describe right now is the feeling of being in the sky entirely and and and and and these times that i'd forgotten about , such details that I couldn't remember... I can't tell you the feeling it was to be in my head, and to then realize after reading the words i'd written that there are tears rolling down my cheeks and my heart is a little swollen , feeling inadequate and missing something i should never ever think about again. Thanks for loving me. I forgot about you.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

everyday is the worst day of my life.

I'm writing a book. I haven't started it yet. I haven't completely gathered my thoughts. I live in a mess, I'm lost in my own little world and I'm not leaving.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

moving on.

I am shaking in my boots with the thoughts of moving onto a new place where I can hopefully be happier. Today was a little draining, and a little too much for my heart to handle. I truly do feel a pain in my chest. Physically and metaphorically. I don't know what to do besides weep and enjoy every last second of break and being completely alone. (laundry is done!)