yesterday

i was so nervous, being so close. and you didn't even notice.
i don't think i have felt my heart jump like that in so long. I'm so ridiculous.
I know what I want , but I don't know how to get it.

Being here is so lonely. I can't help but think being back in vegas is just as lonely though. Only i'd be surrounded by substance.
I don't know what pills I swallowed last night, but I didn't wake up until almost 12. That never,ever,ever,ever happens. -_-