ambivalent.

I think I could lay in bed forever. Today was easy. I came home from my Aunts around 12PM. I had made plans to go shopping with my grandma, but it didn't really work out. I felt too drained to even leave the house. I ended up going up to my room and getting under my covers and watching donnie darko, shortly after falling asleep for a few hours. It was almost like the sleep I get when I'm elevated. I could still feel and hear my surroundings. I remember glancing at the screen and I saw the old woman's mouth move perfectly to "every living thing dies alone" I had never so perfectly heard it like I did today.

 After many hours of sulking, I worked on homework and made not much progress. I guess it's better than none. I'm so worried. 

I really wouldn't mind someone to console me, to love me. Something, anything. Life's lonely.