constantly.

I am constantly torturing myself by online window shopping my favorite sites, viewing and drooling over things I would die to have. I am so proud of myself for not buying anything.
That's partially because I hide my credit card in a place that's not easy to get to. Thus, I'm spending less money. All I buy are things for school and groceries. That's it, Truly.
It's just self torture, and I should really stop. I really want a cute headband and things to wear.
I think the thing i would like best would be to move into a bigger place. I love where i live now, I just wish, wish, wish it were bigger. If I could just spread out a little more. Have a roommate, that would be wonderful.
But hey, that's something I don't really need and it's kind of silly to even really consider moving out unless I have a roommate and the place is 100 times better than where I am now.

Now I lay here, sick as a puppy; medicated myself with gatorade, nyquil and nose strips.
I want to feel better so I can feel good about school and get my things done. I've honestly felt so depressed lately because I have been sick and not getting things done.

Thank goodness for my puppy, if i didn't have his company I might disappear for the rest of the time.
Now to put on a movie, write in my journal, and worry about things beyond my control. (such as my stuffy, gross nose)

I am not looking forward to tuition that's due.